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"As for me and my house we will serve the Lord." Joshua 24:15

Thursday, January 13, 2011


We have been "iced in" for four days. I should have been working on my blog. I am finally taking a break from laundry and reality television to do so!

I am not a real fan of the month of January. I am usually broke, it is freezing, and I have lost three precious people in the month of January. I really don't want all of my post to be about death, it seems like the last couple have been, but I am paying tribute to three special people that the Lord allowed for me to have in my life and have left lasting impressions.

Today is January 13th. One year ago one of my best friends past away due to pancreatic cancer. He died 7 weeks after he found out. Randy was a great father, coach, and friend. I miss hearing him chuckle. He was great. The way we lost him has had an impact on me. Now that I am in my 30's I tend to look at life and the value of it a lot more differently than I did in my 20's and teens.

Randy you are in our thoughts daily!

This past Sunday was January 9th. It was exactly seventeen years to the day that I last saw my Paw Paw Smitty alive. He was so special to me. This was my first time losing someone in my life so quickly. My other grandfather died two years before but we had time to say goodbye. It was not the case with my Paw paw. He woke up on January 16th not feeling good. His legs were hurting so bad. Granny said that his chest was just so red when he got out of the shower. They drove to the ER to see why he was hurting so bad. About 5 minutes after my Paw Paw walked into the room he was assigned he laid down on the bed and died. He had an aortic aneurysm. I didn't get to say good bye. I loved him so much. I was 18 when he died. He was so crazy about Devyn. My Paw Paw was an icon of love to me. His real name is Elvis Clinton Smith. Mom says that when she was little and Elvis concerts were aired he would say "look my name is in lights!". Every time I think of him I am reminded of the song by Randy Travis, "He Walked on Water". I can still see him smile and hear his laugh. I remember when I was younger he smoked Camel non filtered cigarettes. I would spend the summers with my grandparents since mom worked. He would smoke and it would always trail towards me. One day when I was fanning my face he said, " smoke always follows pretty girls". I love him dearly. I have missed him so much, I wish he could see my other 5 children, I can see his smile now. My grandmother was devastated when he died. She has never been the same. My Paw Paw was Awesome, there will never be another man like him. 

My Paw Paw and Granny Smith, two of the most precious people in the world.

Next Wednesday, January 20th,  will be fifteen years ago that we lost Mike's brother Ricky. Rick was another precious person. Watching my husband lose his brother was another one of hardest things that I have experienced. Rick had a liver disease that they could not cure, when they found out he had it they gave him 6 months. Daulton was just a baby. Ricky was crazy about Devyn. He called her his little girl. Rick was the life of the party, when he walked into the room everyone knew he was there. He was so much fun and could make anyone laugh. He would come up from Atlanta and take Mike's mom out to lunch or shopping. He was crazy about his mom and family. We did get to say goodbye. The entire experience will always have an impact on me. He was 30 when he died. He has also been missed greatly.

Ricky & Devyn 1993

Ricky was buried on Tuesday, January 23, 1996. 

Losing Rick was a hard time in our marriage. The Lord brought us through. Mike and I have been married for 18 years. Losing these three precious people in our lives has forever changed us. The Lord always has a way of bringing things full circle. The above is the reason that I do not like January, have you ever heard the term God gives us roses in December? Well God gave me a Sunflower in January, she is the only reason why I like January:

Addison Lilleigh Hill

was born on Tuesday January 23, 2007

My baby girl was born 11 years to day that we buried Ricky. She has brought sunlight and warmth to the month of January. She turns 4 in ten days. She is such a joy to me and this family. God is Awesome!

 She is truly a Mommy's girl. She flutters around the house dancing and singing. She has such a vivid imagination and is so smart! She is a product of her environment. A Sunflower in January.

-"You turned my wailing into dancing; you removed my sackcloth and clothed me with joy, that my heart may sing to you and not be silent. O LORD my God, I will give you thanks forever." Psalms 30:11-12


Saturday, January 1, 2011

Happy New Year!

Today is the first day of 2011!!
I pray that this year the Lord will shine His favor upon us. 2010 was one of the hardest years of my life, besides 2009! With the old year closing and a new one starting I reflect on so many things and "resolutions".

*God has not failed me, He has provided all of our needs.
*I am thankful for the health of my family, the roof over our heads, our jobs and the love we share.
*2010 was a year of learning and 2011 will be the year to apply what I have learned.
*I really believe that life is not measured by how many breaths you take, but by the moments that take our breath away.
*I have been challenged tremendously as a parent this year. Stretched in so many ways. I have experienced so many feelings and emotions that I have no idea where they came from, all because I am a parent. Everything was easier when they were babies and I could change a diaper or fix a bottle and everything would be okay. From about 11 years on it is not the case. I know the Lord wants me to learn from it. I have three more to go and I am not through with the older three yet.

*To return to my roots. To return to my quiet time. To have a closer walk with the Lord.
*To spend more quality time with my kids. Devyn will be graduating in five months and going off to college in eight. I am still trying to hang on to having them all together. Our family life is going to change so much in the next year.
*To be more positive. I am a negative person. I resolve to be more positive. My husband is an optimist, I am more of realist. I need to be more of a optimist.
*To eat better, I will be 36 this year, my late 30's!!! I'm not getting any younger. I need to get healthy now.
*To update my blog more often.

Here is to 2011, a better year than the last :)